Still Trying

Insights: Feels like the sight of me would bring a smile to the face, but behind the smile would bring tears down the cheeks..


Everything's fine, but different. We're trying. for a better future, together. I hope he'll make it through for me.

Thanks for everything, I love you.

I'm still here, have never left.

Insights: Re-live the moments with me. Please.

Love.

You.

You're still my star

Insights: To You..

Corinne Bailey Rae- Like A Star

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Honour to love you.

Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you.
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind.
You've got this look i can't describe,
You make me feel I'm alive.
When everything else is au faite,
Without a doubt you're on my side.
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song
Oh, your love...

I have come to understand
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand.

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I'm sorry for doing things that hurt you.
the way i handle things.
for all my mistakes.

I'll never be the same without you.
I did love you, will and still do.
I ask for your forgiveness, and a chance to change.
You want me to change. Then can i please change, for you?

Strip

Insights: Feelin clean:)


Got Waxed yesterday!
( rid the fuzzy wuzzy )




Hurhur.

You'll think i'm crazy.

Insights: Explicit Content.



Seeing the need to be good. Correction. Maybe not good, just.. BETTER.


Cutting down. Cutting down on many things.

The big F word.

Drinks.

Temper.

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Saving some. Still saving some things.

There'll still be time for parties.

Still allowing occasional splurges.

Definitely still some late nights. (i don't have my outings in the day ya kno.)

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To bf: (If you're reading this) Some times i really can't put to words my thoughts, and voice them out to you in a proper, considerate manner. I'm sorry for not being the best i can. I really hope things between us will turn out better. At least better than now. Hoping we'll have more fun & laughter together.. Thanks a million for everything.

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Pictures from the previous time we went butter with shanker, eneida and nurul,

Just for fun.

I look like crap. AHHH.

This is out to Eneida:

One is your bf for the night, one is your bf wannabe.

HAHA. Just for laughs:)

A Quickie

Insights: Feelin; Chillo

Just had to put up a 'quickie' post before i go take a piss and my bath.

Clubbing last friday wasn't partying. It really isnt. Its my first bad clubbing experience. Shit happens yeah.. Anyway, the music. Inside butter was playing rmb, which was only so so~ that night. I don't know what's it called, but the 'outside' bar area was playing progressive. beautiful man.. the music was awesome. That's probably the only positive thing. And the 2 cute guys i spotted was a plus point.

Gonna meet rox soon, after she ends work at 5.45pm. Its really been some time since i've reached town when the sun is still up, for shopping. I usually reach town at 8 or 9pm, which is silly, coz the shops are closing. Oh well, its just me la. Not the day kinda person, unless its tanning, beach, or the unavoidable, school.

Mum is hogging the toilet now. I need to bathe. I am gonna be late. Oops.

Just another mid-school post

Insights: I am too free.

Currently stucked in class, totally unaware of what's happening. Lesson is on market research that requires much excel work, which i have zero knowledge in. I cant do excel for nuts and i get a headache when i see all the numeric figures. Probably that's the reason why i failed maths since primary 3 until prelims. Good thing i passed for O Lvls.

Just had a banana & peanut butter waffle which was quite satisfying to lighten my zombified mood. But i can feel the carbs & fats! Shiiiiittttt. I've been muching away too delightfully and have been putting aside the thought of healthy eating for too long. Felt sooo fat yesterday, i got back to my sit ups. Love handles are not cute at all. Being meaty and round is not good at all. To think that baby actually said this to me yesterday..'' Actually i don't want you to slim down.. blablabla ( gives reasons ). '' But when i asked him about his preference between slim babes and meaty girls, i could see his reluctance in admitting that he prefers the slim & sexy over the meaty & cute. BAHH!! Its just the fact. I feel so demoralised man. Maybe its time i should seriously consider a diet.

I'm all excited bout tonight. Partying with eneida babe again. This time, kelvin's joining coz its his off day!! Its more like i'm accompanying eneida for a date rather than the love birds accompanying me, the lonely one, to party. The only reason Eneida's going is because kelvin is! What a friend. Ha.


ps: Eneida babe, you can always leave a comment tho i dun have a tag board! Ha. And i wanna see all the photos that's still with you.. pass me through a thumbdrive or something next time pls.


Wonder how baby is doing in school now.. I was really surprised when he told me he have been reading my blog recently. I hope he have plans for later coz i'm going to party and i won't be accompanying him. It'll be perfect if he's night is as interesting as mine!

Class is really damn boring for me. Help.

Weekends Please Come Quick

Insights: Feelin; lazy.

Currently in lesson, listening to Whine Up by kat Deluna. Feelin the groovy vibes. Feelin the party mood. Maybe coz the weekend's drawing near yeah.. Cant wait to sweat it out on the dance floor again. I'm sure Eneida babe would rekon with my thoughts. Hehs. Cant wait for my reggae course to start too..

My 2 weeks school holiday starts the week after this! Yiiippeeeeeee! I am sooooo looking forward. Spells more partying, shopping and dates! Wahaha.

Class is so boring. I'm losing it. Sigh..

Party Night

Insights: Butter


Pics from Eneida's blog.

Me a lil high, but had a whole lot of fun.

Waiting for more pics.

Ya'll make do with these:

Eneida babe, shanker sexy and meeee!

Hottie and me lookin very intoxicated.

Anyone mentioned lesbian act? Ha.

( yes, i was flushed red )

Love the pictures, love the moments, love the company.

Nights like that should never end:)

Eneida babe, soon soon, again again! Ha.

Keep rockin all.

*blow kisses*

Partying again

Insights: Lonely night.

Had a wacky time partying yesterday. The usual club, my usual party babe eneida. This time, shanker and friend ( nurul ) joined us. My first time partying with shanker. It was pretty fun! All the booze and dancing in HIGH killer heels was crazy. Legs and back are all achy now. Ooo. not forgetting the highlight of the night. DJ Masterkey definitely made my night! Woooaaah. really damn good. Music was super fantastic. Rocks man.

After everything, I'm reeaally thankful to all of them for looking after me. They really protected me from horny strangers. And of course, i was doing the same, looking after the other girls. ( Especially eneida babe whom had an irritating housefly pestering her ) Even being in the bar, sherwin was doing a great job in protecting us girls:) I am really really touched. Friends like that definitely make every party time safer and more enjoyable.



Tonight, i'm kinda home alone. Maid is home, but sleeps real early. Mum is in malaysia, all siblings are out. I'm really really not used to being home alone, especially at night. Its not so bad after all. Feelin very very relaxed. Its been some time since i have felt so relaxed. The silence brings nostalgia very very much. Had a sudden surge of emotions, very much craving to enjoy honeymoon period of a relationship again. Feelin; in love.

I think it spells emo. But then again, it brings reflections as well. I guess i'm taking this quiet time pretty well:)

Okay. mum and sis just got back. Disrupted my peace and silence. damn. Haha.

Chillo Night

Insights: Back to the beer days. Feelin; In pain. Bad headache

13th May 08, Tuesday night.

Met my babe eneida for dinner, then Chips ( i don't know how its spelled. ) for beer with Shanker and company. Was cheap and good. San miguel. Muuuuuaah.

Had enough to get me going, then E-Thirty Three. Hehs. Perfect.

To wrap the night up, we all went over to Acid Bar, where the love birds met. ( If you get what i mean.. ) Back to the usual, vodka red bull. And you bet i was angry like a bull. I REALLY WAS. Coz of some reason which i'm not convenient to reveal in this space. Pissed to tears.


Night was still fun. Thanks to drunken shanker & eneida babe.

Toilet Pictures:

Eneida had her Mr ahem ahem. Where was mine? *pouts*

Reggaeton~

Insights: Weak.

Physically tired, plus aching all over. Stomache have been wierd lately. Its bloooooooaaaaated. and in pain randomly. My body's just wierd when i'm suffering from fatigue. I guess it happens to everyone, huh.

Mother's Day At Grandma's house

all the mamas.

the too-young-to-be-mamas. Haha.

blow-the-candles time.

The party was at butter over the WEEKENDS.
It was all happening stuff.

With my babe ( whom is very very heavy colour light friend )

Eneida.

Yo Bitch!

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Picture of the Day.

Kelvin & Eneida

The horny & the hornier. Ahahahahahaha.

(Aight. It was a joke.)

12th May 08

Rox accompanied me to sign up an introductory Reggae course at O school, commencing on the 29th this month. I'm all excited to get my lazy ass into dance lessons again. Rox wanted Street Jazz instead, but i've managed to phsyco her to be my reggae buddy. Heh Heh.

Random. I miss bx. i hope we'll have a fun date soon. Like its something we have not had for a very long time:(

Random. I am very sleepy.

Laters.

Grumbles.

Insights: Aching back and tummy.

Sit ups last night. Too fat to do nothin.

Having no train of thoughts at this moment. Too bothered by school work. BORING!

Random. I'm in love with a Dior pair of shades. $435. Will continue shades hunting, hoping to find a cheaper alternative. If i do, it'll be perfect.

Plans for tonight is still very vague. Hate this kind of uncertainty. Makes my planning for my day difficult. Feelin' a lil way tooo tired to party. Oh well. Thank goodness i have baby's company for the evening. Shopping! *wriggles fingers like white chicks*


I am REALLY tired. I need good rest like now.. My waist is breaking. I'm still stuck in class, not exactly in my best mood.

Byebye.

Just Bored

Insights: Almost drained till the last bit of energy. Very sleepy.

I am soo tired & sleepy. The reason why i'm still at this is because i need a space to spout my grumbles. Feel so bored as i have been a very good girl since last wednesday coz i have not been out to party nor drink. No idea why i have been feelin tired easily now a days. Plus its soo difficult to find a 'kaki' for party-ing.

Sigh.

Roxanne is soo pissed with a crude/dirty/shallow guy whom is fat , tall & ugly. Pui.
Girl Power. She should slap him hard, kick him in the ass, give him a piece of her mind until he gets brainwashed and retarded. Roxanne says he looks like shreg. A horny & disgusting shreg. EEee.. He deserves to vanish from Earth to a very big extent. There's nothing wrong being ugly. But if you're ugly + dirty minded, YOU DESERVE TO DIE BECAUSE NO ONE WILL SEE SEX APPEAL IN YOU & YOU WILL DISGUST EVERYONE TILL THE WHOLE WORLD IS DISTURBED BY YOUR DISGUSTING-NESS.
Yeah.. something like that. Hurhur..

I need to repaint my toe nail now because i was a silly fool to wear a covered footwear for my outing when my nail vanish is only semi dry. *pouts*


Edward just called. I'm very surprised. Shall continue my conversation with him.

Ciao~

Gathering:)

Insights: Weekend with an absence of music, crowd & booze.

Rare thing i was home early on a friday & saturday night. No party, no nothing. Jeesh.

Well, Sunday was a short tanning session with baby, then a gathering.

Home with baby:) Muuah.

Cabbing again!

On the way to chinatown for KTV with the peeps.

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Finally got to see my noinoi darling! Hehs.

And don too.

haha. he cannot take a decent picture i don't know why.

Ahaha.

My baby love~ lalala. Haha.

Its e singing fever.

From left, Dominic, Don, Jun Xiang, Michelle, Katherine, Pei Qi

Missing from picture: Me, Bx & Cherie :P

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Then it was Ichiban Boshi at Wisma. Weee. Thanks to my sushi cravings. Wonder which taste bud was responsible for it.. hmmm.

A pity we didn get to eat out tempura ice cream Its really good! So good its outta stock:((

After ichiban was dessert at HongKong Cafe..

Noinoin and JC

Greedy Don.

Candid Pics.

The super unglam me.

I was adjusting my tube dress unknowing to photographer Don, whom caught me in the background as well.

Just doing our own stuff.

Don't think we're the only one in love.

Don & mitch too. Haha!

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This is a classic. Don rocks=p

Something sweet to end off...